cranky.
Tuesday, August 26, 2008
im sick.phsyically.
fucked up migranes,stupid fever.
shivering through the night.
aching feets.
i hate being sick.
mentally sick.
because of emoshits who annoys the hell out of me.
i dont get it.
just because you're emotionally unstable,
doesn't mean i get to be your bloody postman.
seriously,
here i am curing a fucking migrane,
there you are annoying me with pleads and threats.
i have a whole lot of better things to do.
do i bother you with my moodswings and pussy moments.
HELL NO.
so why are you bothering me.
and thats my friend you're talking about.
what do you mean she doesnt care.
she does.
she cries whine and forget her bloody friends because of you and you still say she dont care.
stop it with your insecurities.
all she do is spend a whole lot of time with you,
doing hatever the hell you want.
breaking a whole lot of boundaries,
just for you.
stop being an ungrateful whiny ass and do realise she loves you.
she my friend for goodness sake.
you know i have her back anytime.
even when she's in the wrong,
i'll still say she's right.
i know her well enough.
i know your going to read all this,
sooner or later.
just like the rest.
and then there will be one more person hating me.
you can say whatever you want to.
but whatever it is it wont be as hurtful as what he had said.
so yea.
but i dont fucking care.
im not into making more friends.
or sucking up to people just so they would like me.
or wanting to climb up the social ladder for that matter.
i dont hate you.
i really dont.
but sometimes you just get on my nerves and i feel like punching the wall and make my knuckles bleed.
just so i can avoid you and feel the pain instead.
i have my own shit.
i dont need your messed up love life to be tangled in instead.
i cant handle my own problems.
dont you get that?
you dont have to tell me your sob stories and make me feel left out just because your in love.
im fine if you want to be with her 24/7.
because im use to not have my friend around anymore.
it better that way i guess,rather than being around her and there's you.
its just so suffocating.
i know im not suppose to feel this way,
i know i shouldnt.
but i cant help it.
im not a hypocrite.
really fucked up now,
i feel so agitated im going to cut tonight.
maybe im just cranky because im sick.
im sorry.
you are a nice person,
but she comes first.
whatever it is.
so please do understand.
