bliss.
Thursday, October 30, 2008
multiple orgasms.
beautiful.
Wednesday, October 29, 2008
i guess i should tell you,dont blame yourself
its not your fault,
but that would be a lie.
we both know i didnt get here by myself.
and you'll say it didnt have to be this way.
you will act like everyone expects you to.
but will you miss me?
more importantly,
will i miss you?
does either one of us really want to hear the answer to that question?
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nineteen minutes.
bored.
Tuesday, October 28, 2008
to a special star.
Monday, October 27, 2008
i know it may have been rough,for the both of us.
countless misunderstandings.
but there is still good times after all.
those late nights early mornings.
drinking sessions.
poker champions.
crappiest fantasies.
i miss all those.
i missed you you.
im still sorry for what i said,
and that still holds true.
maybe now i undestand better.
we both want her to be as happy as can be.
maybe we can start again.
for what its worth,
i still love you i do.
i hope this 22nd will be the best for you.
i wish you all the happiness in the world.
may you find what you're looking for.
may you shine with the brightest star.
im not good with birthdays.
but i do hope you'll have a good one.
sincerely from this tainted pussy heart.
(because here we are at our happiest.)
happy birthday,alex*.
i want to go home.
Saturday, October 25, 2008
its not fair.its really not fair.
there is really no point here.
i've lost my appetite for friends.
or anybody else for that matter.
where is the justice,really?
or maybe it only exist in the world of beautiful.
never will be in mine.
never.
im sick of this.
people just annoy the hell out of me.
i hope they all de.
fucking die.
its not fair.
its not fair.
its not fair.
i give up.
confession.
i've been rotting at home for a week straight.
and suprisingly i didnt die of boredom.
somehow been missing a lot,
of reality.
but the bottomline is,
we're not the same people
that we use to be years ago.
you're not the same,
maybe im the one who's not changing.
And I got the point that I should leave you alone,
But we both know that I'm not that strong.
i miss the lips that made me fly.
hello-ween.
Wednesday, October 22, 2008
i want to be a witch.
the last thing i wanted,
Sunday, October 19, 2008
was for you to leave.
waited.
Friday, October 17, 2008
LAPPIE FINALLY RECOVERED.thank heavens.
look who's back.
Tuesday, October 14, 2008
FINALLY,
he's home.
thank god.
5 days was long enough.
please dont go away again.
somehow now its complete.
happy birthday nia.
1310.
(oh bloody flying roaches infested the kitchen today,
and i almost died of horror. thank goodness they found the pesticide and i finished the whole can. how great time to get a new one.oh lets make it two.)
iman.
Sunday, October 12, 2008
3 days.
its too long.
please get well soon baby.
come home.
i miss you.
DREAMING.
Thursday, October 9, 2008
IF ONLY.
faizal.
Monday, October 6, 2008
you look so good in that purple baju kurung,i miss you loads mr unsatisfied soul.
strudels.
Sunday, October 5, 2008
of japanenese poses,
to the endless sex talks.
only they understand.
i love you both.
dear mom.
Thursday, October 2, 2008
favourtism.the thing my mom loves.
from adlynn to armand.
to azalea and emil.
i hate you for that.
i'll never be your number one.
you only care about others.
you put junkies and gays ahead of me.
and please dont say that you care about me because i know you dont give a shit.
dont say that you're a fair person because you are not.
dont lie.
dont pretend to be nice.
you're just like the rest mom.
mybe people will hate me for what i say about you,
but it nothing more then the truth.
you always care about your fucking image and reputation.
thats all you think about.
and i know youre ashamed of me.
im not like you.
not like your dead daughter.
im not like your beloved granddaughters.
im not perfect.
i never will be.
even if i can,because i dont want to be the hypocritical bitch that you are.
fuck you.
i dont care about your freaking money.
i dont want it.
you can take it back.
i know you never did love me.
but its okay.
because im adopted.
and i know that.
im not your blood.
i figured it all out a long time ago.
thank you for making my life a living hell.
