i received a card today.
from my brother whose away.
and the sudden rush of overwhelming emotions gushed through.
and i missed him.
i hope he's going to be okay.
i really hope he will be.
all plans were kinda fucked up.
thanks a lot dear friend.
you've changed and you know it.
its not just me who noticed.
but if this is how you want to treat your friends,
then fine.
but please,
a relationship filled with lies and control wont get far.
maybe it will,
its not up for me to say.
but we all agreed that your first choice was a much better candidate.
i hope shes not the wrong one.
i sincerly do hope you're happier this way.
i missed the old you.
before everything else.
eating ice kachang in an unknown heartland.
talking laughing,
just being free.
i missed my friend.
the one who cares.
who said things are going to be better.
not the ignorant attached to the hip person you are now.
and the orion belt is ours.
you me kyle's.
so please dont get into the picture.
dont fake it.
dont try to be our friend.
just dont.
i dont hate you,
really i dont.
i just dont like you.
and theres a difference.
and i know you dont like me either.
so lets just keep things that way.







and lets just pretend,
to be nice to each other.
for her sake.
{ 2:16 AM }



i miss nights like this,
sneaky rendevouz.
sharp fangs.
hairy legs.
early mornings.
red red monsters.
slaves and mistress.
i miss this room.
{ 4:02 AM }


missed.

boredfuck.
can't sleep.
snore filled room.
shucks.
{ 3:16 AM }


my fault,as always.
sucks to be alone you know.
{ 4:11 PM }


was browsing through an old friend's profile when i saw this and almost died.

okay,
go ahead.
hire someone to shoot me.
because i look horrible shit,
and its killing me that its keeping me awake thinking on how horrible this is.
but this is at my happiest,the life before you.
{ 3:04 AM }


could you fill in the blanks in my story,
tell me what im missing
what you could be for me.
what would i find if i followed your path,
all the things i longed for
that i'll never have.










what would my life be
living in your arms
we will never know.
and what would you say,
if i were to stay
and just go your way.
{ 3:04 AM }


fuck
fuck
fuck
fuck.






sensing a lot of hate coming.
to and fro.
like finally a proper drama.
come on,
lets sharpen these claws
because i want them sharp and ready.
just in case for new names:)
{ 3:50 AM }



my distractions,for now.
{ 2:48 AM }


with the messy hair
sexy stare
cutey putey lips
like
a
penguin.






the best compliment yet.
seriously.
tagged people are freaks.
{ 2:45 AM }


i dont hate you.
right now,i dont hate anyone actually.
but i got a feeling a lot do.
well,
its okay.
i just thik it just a waste of time to hate.
i mean,its tiring isnt it.
there is too much hatred going around.
but i dont love either.
if you get my drift.
i just cant feel anything anymore.
i hope it goes back like before.
the girl with no emotions.
no hate,no love.
nothing.








and i only blame you for it,amber.
just you,and no one else.

{ 10:29 PM }


i dont understand why,but for whatever reason it may be..
i hope its for your happiness.





i know im good for something i just havent find it yet,
without you i'll be miserable..
at best.
{ 3:22 AM }


i saw you today.
flashbacks of happiness and tears.
mind blocked.
chest constricted.
i felt like running away.
i felt like chasing after you.
i didnt know what to do.
i didnt know whether it was real or just a figment of my imagination.
you were there.
right beside me,with a fag in hand.
yet you didnt say anything.
not even a smile.
busy talking to your stupid friends.
i know you saw me.
i know you did.
but you didnt even care.
did you?
i hate you so so much.
wh cant you say a simple hello.
i was right there.
what did i ever do to deserve this.












you seem happy enough.
that is good enough for me.
i know you dont care anymore,
its okay.
its going to be okay.
im going to make myself believe that.
i miss you so much.
{ 11:58 PM }

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