oh yes, it hurts.

pattern making

Saturday, January 31, 2009

i need to start sewing again,

and bank's account back to zero.

desperately in need for a major shopping spree.
what in the world is a girl to do,

when in a smokey place i still see you.

{ 2:21 AM }

bad idea.

Friday, January 30, 2009

lesson in life:

NEVER PARTY AND DRINK WHEN HAVING A TOOTHACHE.

I REPEAT,NEVER.

{ 4:23 PM }

toothache

Thursday, January 29, 2009

is back with a vengeance.
fuck!!!
how the hell am i supposed to have fun tonight.
oh wth, im gonna party harder.
(oh shit V is picking me up an 15mins an im not even dressed yet.)

{ 8:30 PM }

hello annie jane and jenny.

Wednesday, January 28, 2009

you fuckers should be ashamed of yourself,

and probably should just walk around with a bag on your head

or JUST BLOODY HANG YOURSELF.

{ 4:41 PM }

for you tonight.

you had all of this,why isnt it enough?

{ 1:47 AM }

nephew is a camwhore too.

Tuesday, January 27, 2009

sayangnyer kau ni!

smile iman smile.

"where nor where?"
-super annoying,very adorable.

very loved,my superman:)

{ 2:28 AM }

alcohol is

Monday, January 26, 2009

"pretty much awesome."

{ 3:00 AM }

its going to be legen..

Saturday, January 24, 2009

wait for it..
(omg i absolutely adore this guy,i can watch him for hours.
did i mention that i love him too?)
here it comes..
dary!

ok it does not quite work non verbal but still,
you get my drift.

{ 3:43 AM }

let it fall.

Friday, January 23, 2009

empty.
it's very empty here.
the walls are not entertaining,but they do protect.
couped up inside.
breaking out in cold sweat.
shivering suffering.
taking in the misery
all in a day.
with the intense feeling of pain and regret
losing all faith
i've let it all go,but it leads me here.
back in the same path
square one,only worse.
because here,there is no you.
not even a memory,a recollection scent
to fall back on.
i've erased all that to recover.
i guess i did but,
its still empty here.
so quiet,so bare so alone.
and i cant go back,
i just cant.

{ 7:14 PM }

made my awesome day.

Thursday, January 22, 2009

"muka macam musibat nak melawa
tengok muka kat cermin la beruk"
-unknown psyco from tagged.

{ 3:41 AM }

2101

Wednesday, January 21, 2009

I make believe
That you are here
It's the only way
I see clear
What have I done
You seem to move on easy.

{ 4:43 PM }

www.gojane.com

(awesome awesome boots! chunky multicoloured heels,

fabulous moccasins and did i mention boots?!)

IS SERIOUSLY DRIVING ME TO THE POINT OF INSANITY.

{ 3:28 AM }

"seri aku takot seri!"

Tuesday, January 20, 2009

line of the day,girl of the hour.
it was extremely hilarious.
we're like almost the more dysfunctional version of the sex in the city women.
okay no,im neither carrie nor samantha.
and yes,i still do miss elfie.
(that vacant seat was just for you boy)

{ 3:03 AM }

kyle elfie miller

Sunday, January 18, 2009

i miss you so so so so so so so so so much.

without you people i seem to have nothing better to do

holed up at home in front of lappie having 7 hour marathons of shows

that remind me of you,staring at people's pictures wondering what keeps them so happy with sincere smiles all around,and the constant desire to blog and talk about things that dont matter at all. i miss you pi,please come home soon with great stories and pictures to keep me entertained for hours, keeping me safe and comfortable like you always do:(

{ 10:46 PM }

time to get serious

make that a wiccan virgin.

okay?

i seriously need to re-invent.

or maybe wake up from this dreamland i call reality.

{ 8:59 PM }

so i decided today

that im going to start wearing red lipstick,

and pass off as a born again virgin.

{ 1:51 AM }

results.

Saturday, January 17, 2009

im done with a toy,
temporary playthings
dont need it no more.
gone and deleted.
thank god.

{ 5:58 PM }

WELL HELLO THERE.

hooked on how i met your mother,
drunked on vgl boys on youtube
please do not disturb.
im on hibernation mode.
fuck the people.
fuck everybody.

i need nobody,
and you are a jerk.
yay!!
(SORRY,PMS PMS.)

{ 3:07 AM }

this morning.

Thursday, January 15, 2009

with you.

happy?

yes?

no?

whatever,heh.

{ 1:53 AM }

iman.

Wednesday, January 14, 2009

the only one who can make me smile,

without faking it.

{ 5:45 AM }

amber.

i so happy then you are doing so well.
so fine,so healthy.
so happy.
i promised myself not to think of you,
but.

i so need to get a restraining order against myself.
stop it emilia,
just stop it.
its not worth it anymore,and
its so fucking obvious the he dont give a shit so please,
just let it go
let it all go.

{ 2:47 AM }

solitary confinement.

Tuesday, January 13, 2009

i feel like smoking,again.

oh no.

resist i must.

so bored,so lonely.

cigarettes have always kept me company

during solitarity nights in the past.

so what do i do know?

and while searching for an answer,

i got an alternative temporary distraction.

two words.

wait for it..wait for it...................

BARNEY STINSON!

{ 2:10 AM }

pat abbott.

Sunday, January 11, 2009

greatly missed fucker.

{ 4:02 AM }

you moron,

Hello Everyone..!! says:
"theres nothing there abt ur love for me and how its making u crazy or... how much u think abt me everyday"
hello W.B,hello.
happy now?

{ 2:01 AM }

liar liar her pants on fire.

Friday, January 9, 2009

i've known you for so long
but nowadays,i really wonder who you are.
you're changing so much,you scare me.
or maybe you didnt change.
maybe im the one who dont know a lot about you.
but i thought we're friends.
but friends dont lie.
friends dont hide.
friends tell each other everything.
that is what i've been doing,
why cant you do the same?
or am i not that important?
your skeletons are coming out
and i dont think like it.
i dont really know who you are,
but i want my friend back.
please.

{ 2:52 AM }

recollection

Thursday, January 8, 2009

for a moment and then its goodbye.

but i just lived a lifetime with you in my mind.

what would it be to live in your world,

if you were my boy

and i was your girl?

its crazy the spell you have me under.

no it cant be,but i'll always wonder.

what would my life be living in your arms,

we will never know.

{ 3:22 AM }

for you,a goodbye.

Wednesday, January 7, 2009

hey you,
24th today.
happy birthday.
its time i guess.

i hope everything comes true for you.
have a good one faizal.
i miss you.

{ 12:27 AM }

four floors of whores.

Monday, January 5, 2009

i had the bestest compliment on msn today.

this really hot drag queen told me i look

like another tranny helda.

AWESOMENESS.

the pic above dont help in this situation either.

i cannot deny the fact,

we do look like a pair of you know..

but hey,

i've always thought drag queens is the ultimate sex.

you people should too!

{ 11:33 PM }

let's dance.

Sunday, January 4, 2009

only rainbows can make me feel this good.

thank god saturday boys exists.

i love them with all my heart,

i promise:)

{ 7:18 PM }

after 7th

Saturday, January 3, 2009

i deserve to have a little fun at times,

dont i?

{ 5:15 PM }

oh yes.

Friday, January 2, 2009

just remembered,resolutions.

-friendlier.
-hotter.
-meaner.
-drunker.
-and do not cut hair,no matter how tempting it is nowadays.

{ 12:18 AM }

drinkdrankdrunk.

Thursday, January 1, 2009

i had a surprisingly good time last night,
despite the absence of my favourite party girl.
ns boys are not that bad after all.
the only catch is that i woke up with a terrible headache.
then again,
happy new year:)

{ 12:32 PM }